..I almost fell into that hole in your life.
                        --Black Balloon


My head hurts. I can't make my horse's board this month. My car's on that E is so consistantly accepts. I'm failing a class and borderline passing another. He's been rather irritating the last couple days. I'm not sure I like this attitude he's developing, even if the sex is better.

I want to be held. I want silence. I want peace. I want them to stop telling me I'm doing things wrong. I want to start doing things right. I want my efforts to equal my rewards.

Its obvious I want perfection that I cannot and will not achieve. I was upset for a few hours. I'm over it now and irritated. I'm even more so now that I'm reading over this entry and counting the use of "I". Oh well, its my damn site and I promise I'll have something worth reading some other time.

Lovely little hole in my life. I almost want to nurture it, save it from filling in.